I know the OP has been driving like a bellend, but h'actually he's gained a bit of respsect.
I've seen pics from dozens of crashes on here over the years. Very very rarely does someone stand up and admit it was their fault. Its usually "oil" or blaming the roads with leaves/wet or some crap. Then you get "I was doing 22 in a 60 and the back end stepped out"
We've all driven too fast at times, we were just lucky enough it didn't result in us writing our cars off and had it happened, most people wouldn't be admitting it was completely their fault.
So fair play. You're still a clownshoe, but at least your a man clownshoe. Get it stripped, sold, buy something else and calm down.